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Cake day: July 17th, 2023

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  • Hand tool woodworking. It’s amazing what you can make without a single electron. Its also amazing to feel the tools, the resistance and subtle vibrations as you use them. Like an extension of your own body. I love chiseling, especially large mortises. Hearing that sharp, deep thud, and seeing it sink in as it bites into the wood is so satisfying. Especially when using metal hammers, they are so responsive.

    I love sawing, especially when relaxed and working at a slow pace, seeing all the sawdust fly out with each stroke. Sawing isn’t fun when working on difficult pieces of wood, when working in a relaxed manner with softwood, the hoarse sounds of the saw starts to sound like purring and it begins to cut exceptionally well.

    I love the finish of handplanes, so smooth it becomes water resistant.

    Overall very spiritual and relaxing (as relaxing as you allow it to be at least)









  • Video games. It wasnt for long thankfully but it took all of my time.

    When I was the most depressed and the addiction was at its worst I could sink more than 100 hours a week into destiny. I wanted to get to the “good part” of destiny, get the best guns, gear and stay competitive in PvP (its very meta heavy). After hundreds and hundreds of hours and sun setting, I realized I was still at square fucking one. Sun setting made many old weapons “unusable”, to keep it brief, and I had grown sentimental for my favorite guns and the memories I made with them.

    On top of that, the power level resets, increases further with every season and becomes exponentially harder to increase near the cap (which you need to experience end game content). Destiny is the definition of Sisyphean. Sunk 700 hours and got nowhere, not in real life or even the game.

    I also played other games like Minecraft, terraria, don’t starve and oxygen not included and whilst I harbor much more respect for them, I still despise their grind and slow progression.

    I sunk like 168 hours into a terraria master death calamity run with friends and we only got 2/3 through until I quit and it disbanded.

    What was the nail in the coffin for me was getting meaningful and useful hobbies. I was always under the assumption that skills were excruciatingly hard to learn and master. The whole “it takes 10 years and 20,000 hours to master something”.

    Once I started participating in some I realized you can learn as fast as you want, if you’re passionate enough. I’m no master but I’ve gotten good at computer repair, soldering, cooking and woodworking.

    If you’re dedicated you can pound out a piece of furniture, in a day, with hand tools. You can cook lots of delicious food in an hour It could take DAYS to get a single weapon I wanted in destiny. .

    I learned these skills in just a few years after kicking my habit. Now I’m going to start a business soon and begin teaching others. I still love the occasional game, but not the kind with hour long side quests of traveling to fetch some random shit. They’re old, fast paced shooters that will leave you satisfied after a quick session.

    Life is interesting, you just have to find it.



  • It must have been crushing to shut down your baby that you’ve nurtured for many years, and has nurtured you. I’ve known a lot of older folks with dying business, trying desperately to keep them afloat until they physically cannot anymore.

    I think another contributing factor is the hit to your pride. Going from accomplished ceo, back down to a lowly employee. Having to admit that you’ve “fallen down the corporate ladder”.

    I’ve been thinking about it a lot. I’m beginning a business very young and don’t plan to keep it going forever. It’s mostly a hobby, and while it’d be nice to be set for life, it ultimately wouldn’t provide enough for the way I’d want to live (starting family and living in a decent home).

    On another hand, ADHD has been a blessing since I have many other skills from previous hyper fixations that could land me a decent job.